Oh social media…where do I even begin? For those of you that have been following for a while you might remember I took an Instagram break for about 4 weeks in November. Well, it’s happening again..but for different reasons. Let’s have some real talk.
I love social media for what it can do. I mean, I’m a Marketing major (it’s almost official) so of course I can ramble on and on about how amazing social media can be for you brand, yada yada yada. But I want to focus on the personal side of social media. It’s great for keeping in touch with people, showcasing you talents and personality/style, etc. But recently I’ve understood the negatives of social media better than I had before. Some of you might remember the buzz months ago about the Insta-famous teen who broke down about how unrealistic Instagram is compared to real life and how it wrecked her confidence. Well, that’s where I’m at now. Social media is causing more harm than good for me so I’m on (maybe brief, maybe not) hiatus from all social media.
Sunday was my Day 1. Saturday night I was completely done with all social media mentally. I deleted Snapchat, Facebook, Twitter and Instagram from my phone and logged out of all accounts on my laptop. I need a break. Social media has caused me to compare my life to others’ at the most volatile and fragile point in my life thus far. In 4 days I am officially a college graduate and it’ll be time to enter the real world. I don’t need social media telling me who has the better job, the better boyfriend and who has the best facade of the perfect life.
Day 1 was rough. It was mainly the boredom that got me. When I was sitting on my couch, had downtime after work or was waiting in line – I went for my phone. I was rudely awoken by the lack of time-sucking apps to choose from (let’s just say my Pinterest is getting a lot of pins this week). The next thing I noticed was how many pointless things I automatically went to post. Let me take a selfie at the gym…okay well I have no where to post it, so no picture. Or Snapchats that have no purpose whatsoever other than make me feel falsely secure with myself…do I really need to show other people I think I look pretty today or that I can wear that shirt confidently? No, Ang, you really don’t.
By Day 3 I had made another discovery. The people that I’d receive notifications from (or validation from) were people who weren’t my friends. They were acquaintances, people from my college, guys from Tinder, old high school friends and guys I dated. These weren’t the people that would pick me up if my car broke down or eat ice cream with me when I’m upset. So why did I seek validation from them?
It’s Day 4 currently. The majority of the temptations have passed. For a minute there I was trying to convince myself that this was a rash decision made in one of my moods. But I’m sticking with this. Only good can come from this. So far it’s opened my eyes to a lot and to be honest I feel happier already. I’m not comparing my body to girls on Instagram, I’m not waiting for my crush to like my status on Facebook and I’m not counting how many people watch my Snap Story.
My plan is to do this until the 15th (a week) because that’s when I’m launching my first collection of my streetwear brand. (go check it out here!) But I decided I’m not logging into my personal Instagram until July 1st (at the earliest). I’ll also only be posting brand related things on Facebook and Instagram June 15th through July 15th. After that..who knows.
I’m living my life and no one has any idea what I’m doing. Do you know how liberating that feels?